Year One

And just like that… One whole year that the world has turned without his existence. Some days it seems like 5 days ago and others it seems like 50 yrs. Life has slowly started to make some sort of sense again. Though some days I’m still dumbfounded and wonder if this actually happened. I missContinue reading “Year One”

In a complicated relationship…

⁣⁣In a complicated relationship with…⁣⁣⁣⁣Grief.⁣⁣⁣⁣About two months ago I decided it was time.⁣⁣⁣⁣Time to wear my wedding rings differently.⁣⁣⁣⁣Wearing them on my left hand just felt fake. Like I was in denial. But not wearing them at all wasn’t an option. ⁣⁣⁣⁣So I’ve been wearing them on my right hand. On the days when theContinue reading “In a complicated relationship…”

You Are Worthy Of New Beginnings

Welcome to my bedroom. I did it! All but one photo came down.No more wedding, His & Her’s bedroom wall. It’s now just HERS. I changed the bedding to bright, happy florals. My mom made me pillowcases out of two of his shirts, and I kept his pillow case that still smells like him toContinue reading “You Are Worthy Of New Beginnings”

The Year of Firsts – Our Wedding Anniversary

How to honor him on this 7th wedding anniversary? When honestly all I want to do is stay in bed and cry. But how would that honor him? I can’t think of anything except for honoring him by remembering the way he loved me. Man did this man L-O-V-E me! On our 4th anniversary, heContinue reading “The Year of Firsts – Our Wedding Anniversary”

I’m still standing (yeah, yeah, yeah)

I ventured out today! All by myself! Pre-grief Mimi would venture out all the time! Especially while Wes was at work. But not since his passing. Granted the world has been closed since two weeks after his passing (which has helped speed up the grief process), but I couldn’t even fathom getting to the pointContinue reading “I’m still standing (yeah, yeah, yeah)”