“Woke up late today and Istill feel the sting of the pain, but I brushed my teeth anyway I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face I got a little bit stronger”… What it’s been like the last 4 years. I’ve been making it through the mess, and I’ve beenContinue reading “4 years”
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17 Days Left to Live
Had we had known 3 years ago today that all he had left was 17 days to live, how would we have lived? Not much differently really. Because of his leg injury, we were able to spend extra time in bed every morning. We sat around and watched lots of Netflix, ate all of hisContinue reading “17 Days Left to Live”
At Least
At Least The thing I hear most often. At least you’re young. At least you can find love again. At least you didn’t have any children. At least you have family for support. At least you know where he is. AT LEAST!!! The words aren’t helpful, supportive, aren’t healing, aren’t kind. There is not atContinue reading “At Least”
Dear Men,
Dear Men, I come with instructions now. Haha! I bought this book, How to Date a Widow 101, for a very special friend. 😇(That’s all I’ll say for now). I’m complicated enough as it is, then add Greta on top of that… Yikes! I learned so much @campwidow over the weekend, including navigating the wholeContinue reading “Dear Men,”
Resentment
Which stage of grief does resentment fall under? Every time I’m in my posh room, I’m a bit resentful that I just can’t do it full time since he died. I miss it. It was my passion.I spent the majority of my days working in here.Now there are times when I don’t step one footContinue reading “Resentment”
2 Years
Two years ago today, what started out as a seemingly normal day ended as everything but…Two years ago today, he went HOME.I still hear the thump of his fall, the sound of his moan, the sound of him gasping for air, my screams at the 911 operator quite vividly. “HURRY! 🤬🤬🤬”I still question why heContinue reading “2 Years”
Thanksgiving Grief
When ‘they’ said the second year would be harder, I didn’t think it would happen to me. After all, I’ve been doing very well with Greta lately. But then the anxiety came with a vengeance on Thanksgiving day and if this is just a taste of it, God help me! The entire day (Thanksgiving), IContinue reading “Thanksgiving Grief”
“Go for a run”
The advice one of my dearest friends that I’ve made this last year has given me.He knows what he’s talking about after all. He too lost the love of his life. I take his advice as expert advice. He’s been doing this way longer than me! So I listened. I went for a run.The runsContinue reading ““Go for a run””
Year One
And just like that… One whole year that the world has turned without his existence. Some days it seems like 5 days ago and others it seems like 50 yrs. Life has slowly started to make some sort of sense again. Though some days I’m still dumbfounded and wonder if this actually happened. I missContinue reading “Year One”
The Secret Santa Tie
I am my boss’s Secret Santa, talk about pressure! I got him candy, some silly socks as requested and I handcrafted decor for his office.But as I was reading his profile, this tie came to mind! And so I gifted him my husband’s tie. This is what I wrote on the note: I believe giftsContinue reading “The Secret Santa Tie”
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