Which stage of grief does resentment fall under? Every time I’m in my posh room, I’m a bit resentful that I just can’t do it full time since he died. I miss it. It was my passion.I spent the majority of my days working in here.Now there are times when I don’t step one footContinue reading “Resentment”
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2 Years
Two years ago today, what started out as a seemingly normal day ended as everything but…Two years ago today, he went HOME.I still hear the thump of his fall, the sound of his moan, the sound of him gasping for air, my screams at the 911 operator quite vividly. “HURRY! 🤬🤬🤬”I still question why heContinue reading “2 Years”
Thanksgiving Grief
When ‘they’ said the second year would be harder, I didn’t think it would happen to me. After all, I’ve been doing very well with Greta lately. But then the anxiety came with a vengeance on Thanksgiving day and if this is just a taste of it, God help me! The entire day (Thanksgiving), IContinue reading “Thanksgiving Grief”
“Go for a run”
The advice one of my dearest friends that I’ve made this last year has given me.He knows what he’s talking about after all. He too lost the love of his life. I take his advice as expert advice. He’s been doing this way longer than me! So I listened. I went for a run.The runsContinue reading ““Go for a run””
Year One
And just like that… One whole year that the world has turned without his existence. Some days it seems like 5 days ago and others it seems like 50 yrs. Life has slowly started to make some sort of sense again. Though some days I’m still dumbfounded and wonder if this actually happened. I missContinue reading “Year One”
The Secret Santa Tie
I am my boss’s Secret Santa, talk about pressure! I got him candy, some silly socks as requested and I handcrafted decor for his office.But as I was reading his profile, this tie came to mind! And so I gifted him my husband’s tie. This is what I wrote on the note: I believe giftsContinue reading “The Secret Santa Tie”
In a complicated relationship…
In a complicated relationship with…Grief.About two months ago I decided it was time.Time to wear my wedding rings differently.Wearing them on my left hand just felt fake. Like I was in denial. But not wearing them at all wasn’t an option. So I’ve been wearing them on my right hand. On the days when theContinue reading “In a complicated relationship…”
You Are Worthy Of New Beginnings
Welcome to my bedroom. I did it! All but one photo came down.No more wedding, His & Her’s bedroom wall. It’s now just HERS. I changed the bedding to bright, happy florals. My mom made me pillowcases out of two of his shirts, and I kept his pillow case that still smells like him toContinue reading “You Are Worthy Of New Beginnings”
6 Months of Healing
Shortly after his passing, the world began to fall apart. Not surprising.His presence made THAT much of an impact on this world. Six months ago I couldn’t even picture surviving the 5 minutes ahead of me. Somehow, I’ve managed to do it for six whole months! In the last six months, I’ve had a lotContinue reading “6 Months of Healing”
The Year of Firsts – Our Wedding Anniversary
How to honor him on this 7th wedding anniversary? When honestly all I want to do is stay in bed and cry. But how would that honor him? I can’t think of anything except for honoring him by remembering the way he loved me. Man did this man L-O-V-E me! On our 4th anniversary, heContinue reading “The Year of Firsts – Our Wedding Anniversary”